After taking about a month and a half off, here we are at the end of frozen embryo cycle number 5. Yes, you read it write five cycles. Five cylces of hormones, shots in the rear, and 9 thawed embryos. Our journey began in January. It is now August and drum roll please........we have..............................................NOTHING!!
My frozen embryo transfer was August 10th. I did what I do every time (pee on a stick) and it was a whopping single line. For those of you that don't know what that means......its a big fat negative. I have to believe that it is true. Those damned home pregnancy tests have yet to fail me. I also do not feel a thing, so I know that it failed...once again...for the fifth time. Surprise.....SURPRISE!!
Naturally, I am disappointed. Each time I think, "this is it, it's going to work", only to look for signs, symptoms, and results that are non-existent.
This cycle both my doctor and the embryologist expressed to me how good my embryos looked. They graded them as 1 1/2 blastocysts. That gave me additional hope because the only other time that they informed me that they were transferring embryos of that quality is when I got pregnant with my son. And unlike my son's cycle, which was a single embryo transfer (they only placed one potential baby back into my body), this time we transferred two great quality embryos. So, you can imagine my shock when not even a faint lined appeared on that home pregnancy test.
Where do we go from here??? This is a question that I continue to ask myself. We have frozen embryos left. We have three options. Option 1, we can try for frozen embryo #6, but there is no guarantee that both embryos would survive the thaw (we actually lost two embryos during these past five cycles), go through an invitro fertilization cycle (where with medication I would produce more eggs, they would surgically remove the eggs, they would fertilize the eggs, and then put one or two back in), or we could just be happy with the blessing that god gave us and call it quits.
The jury is out on our next move. I guess, we will have to wait until my official blood pregnancy test on Wednesday to decide.
