Frozen embryo cycle #4
I arrived at the surgical center of Long Island IVF on Thursday, May 10th, as planned. When I got there, I was told to change and drink water. When I was at the point of my bladder exploding, Dr. Pena came into the room and informed my mother and I that they thawed two of my embryos (we now have four left for future use). He said that they were grade two (the best is grade one). After seeing the concerned look on my face, he goes, "don't worry, that's a good thing". Then, they wheel me to the opertating room and implant my two "maybe babies" into my uterus.
Here we are at three days past our fourth frozen embryo transfer. I sit now on the deck of my mother in laws house while my husband puts together a swing set for our son and all of my thoughts go to the ever present question, "am I pregnant?". Today is Mother's day. I should be sitting here relaxing with my feet up while hubby does the work, but my mind won't rest.
I promised myself that I would not get crazy this time...that I would not obsess over whether it worked this time or not, but I just can't help, but think about it. Every growl of my belly...every twinge...any slight pain, I wonder could something be happening inside of me.
As usual, I do google searches each day (3 days past 5 day transfer...etc...etc..) and so many women post that they feel some type of cramping or discomfort. They describe it as the embryo implanting and burrowing itself into the uterus, but I feel nothing. Does that mean that this hasn't worked for me? Did my embryos thaw again only do cease from developing once placed back into their home? Well....only time will tell. I am hoping...wishing...praying to feel something, anything to indicate to me that they are still in their alive and well. The more that time goes on and the more that I don't feel anything, the more I worry that this is another failed cycle.
On Monday, May 21st I will go into my doctor's office and take the blood pregnancy test. I am sure that I will have some idea at least the night before. I have all week to ponder what I always ponder at this time (Do I want to find out on my own or do I want to wait until I'm at work on Monday?). Either way, I will let you guys know when I know.
Again, I remind myself that what is meant to be...will be. And that god gave us a perfect little boy that is here against all odds. So, we are blessed no matter what the outcome of this current cycle may be.
~Possibly Preggo (again)
Aww, have positive thoughts! Sometimes you feel NOTHING! My sister in law felt NOTHING and our transfer worked! Both of our FETs initially worked too even with ending in chemicals it still initially WORKED! Try not to put too much stock in symptoms, only that beta can tell you! Best of luck and I lots of thoughts and prayers for you all! xoxo!
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